12-13-2015 Day 1

Day 1: 我开始了我的positive emotion训练。今天执行得 很好。 我希望我能坚持完这个假期， 就差不多是21 天了， 能够改变我的生活， 我的习惯。 我要天天开心。 我要我的孩子们也天天高兴。 因为想想自己20年前应该是很聪明的人的，现在好像已经堕落了。 没有别的原因，大概就是因为不高兴的时候太多了。
Day 2: 今天很好。 positive emotion.  只有晚饭时被俩哇弄得高声了一些，没有发脾气。 只是希望工作效率再高点， 晚上不用加班。 明天还是喝一点咖啡吧。

Day 3: not too bad. I almost lost my temper in the morning. but fine.
Day4: i could not hold it today. they were too slow in the morning. I failed today. But I am resilient and bounce back to normal quickly. But I need to be better in the morning. I should not have lost my temper to my little girl. She is such as sweet girl.

Day 5: 12/17: I did not do a good job this morning as I pushed my little girl too  much even she was ok.   do not get stuck at that moment. Try to get relaxed and enjoy every moment with my kids. They are doing great.  Live with them for a longer goal. I had a wonderful lunch with my husband today.  This evening YY did an awesome job by finishing those cards. I will do a better job tomorrow.


Day 6:上山滑雪， 我有犯了几次错误。
Day16： 12/28： 度假回来了。 今天有犯错误了。 因为他们在牙医那里不好好说话， 我觉得有点丢人。 出来后对他们喉。 回到家后， 又因为感觉时间紧张， 因为想带他们去滑冰， 所以有吼。 下午， 姐弟俩做了杯糖水给我， 说， 妈妈因为你后我们了， 所以嗓子不舒服， 我们给你做了杯糖水。 真让我钻地缝。 所以努力作我的功课， 不生气。

positive emotion

positive emotion can expand our awareness. i.e. when you are having positive emotion, you are smarter as you can think better, have more ideas. On the other side, if you are having negative emotion, you may focus on only the negative thing, your brain does not function.
risillient: if you are a risillient person,

孩子们

弟弟记住了妈妈的电话号码， 给妈妈打电话，妈妈没有接起来， 弟弟留言： i love you, i love you so much... 妈妈听了以后很内疚， 因为当弟弟不好好吃饭时， 妈妈是真的和他急呀。
--弟弟学校是twin  day. 老师说，可以穿睡衣。 弟弟说他不想穿，妈妈说， 弟弟，  are yo sure? 你穿睡衣， 和你的小朋友是twin 呀。 弟弟说，sure.  i just want to be me .

Cyber security presentation from CDM

I went to Cyber security presentation held by CDM PTA. It was awesome and I got shocked actually by how unsecure the digital world is, and how much hard work I need to get my self prepared for my kids when they start to access the digital world.
Below is my notes.

First, how to guide while protecting your kids from the digital world. 
--make a contract with kids if you need to get your kid a phone. such as, kids need to get permission first before install any app on the phone. Can't load the phone to anyone.
--Nothing in the digital world is privacy.

Second, the black list:
--Vlogging
-Phloggin
-Mindcraft
-AnimalJam
Nametag
Playstation live, wattpad, creepypasta

i will get a PDF version of the presentation.

BTW this morning is not good. But first I need to be calm all the time. then I can do better with my kids.